15/01/2016

When does tough, get too tough?


“Most of the important things in the world have been accomplished by people who have kept on trying when there seemed to be no hope at all.”– Dale Carnegie



I never really know how to start off a serious subject, I am one of those people who find it hard to open up and this leads to me exploding, and trust me that is not a pretty site, let's just say snotty tears comes to mind.
Growing up I never thought I would be one of those people who couldn't cope, I mean I never exactly had it easy as a child, I grew up with hand me downs and for a brief  period lived on a mattress on my cousins living room floor, shared with my mum and my brother who was around 4 at the time, and even then I dealt with it, I didn't know anything different, but as I got older and moved out I had to do things on my own, at first I thought I was coping and I was having the best time of my life for an 18 year old, I mean who do you honestly know chooses to move out at such a young age? Unluckily for me that wasn't the case, I had to move out because of circumstances at home which meant I couldn't stay at home when I had a full time job - yes it sucked!

And neither less to say the fun did not last, I ended up getting myself in debt woooo, so 19 years old in debt, trying to afford rent and bills is not fun, but with a little support from friends and family I sorted my problems out, but I did have to make sacrifices, I lost things I cared about, things I loved because of my own stupidity, and I paid the price, I had to move away from my home town and family and friends because I had to make responsible decisions, so moving somewhere cheaper, not going out and saving money instead.
The funny thing about it all though is if I could do it again, I wouldn't change a single thing, it taught me to grow up and it made me who I am today, and that brings me on to the past 6 months.
I have suffered with anxiety for the past year, and when I first realized I had it, I ignored it and tried to carry on as normal, I mean I had been through so much surely I could cope right?Well guess what? I was wrong and before I knew it my anxiety spiralled out of control, I started having scary thoughts, cried all the time, panicked when someone would ring my door bell, but I didn't want to believe that I couldn't handle things, I had been through so much in my life I thought it was wrong that I wasn't coping, I didn't want help, I have always been so independent and proud that I felt like I was degrading myself, so I guess I'm writing this because I want to say things do get better, as much as you think they might not and you are in the lowest place, it wasn't degrading or wrong of me to seek help, it made me stronger and a fighter, so what of I'm on tablets, I don't need to be on them forever and I'm facing my problems instead of hiding them away, and even when bad things happen I can always see a positive.
So please don't give up, I'm sure glad I didn't.
Be proud of yourself no matter what because there is always something to be proud of, even the smallest thing.


Oh and if you have an asthma attack take your inhaler --- unlike the stupid person writing this. Hospitals are not fun :)




I needed time away from everything to sort out the craziness in my life, but I am back new year, new chapter and I can't wait to share it with every one, another thing I want everyone to know is my real name, and that is Anna, Meme is my nickname/blogger name, I will still like to go by this name just to keep my online and home life separate, but as this is a new chapter I thought everyone should know that sort of big fact.

Also exciting news, I am now an Avon rep so look out for product reviews and I am even considering starting a Youtube channel. 

Thanks Everyone


30 comments:

  1. So nice to see a post from you :) I'm so happy you were able to seek help when you knew you needed it. So many people just let it go. I hope this year continues to throw much happiness your way!

    Renee | Lose the Road

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    1. And it was so nice to see a comment from you Renee, thank you :) you put a smile on my face! That's what I'm trying to help with, thanks again and same to you.

      Meme X

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  2. You seem like such a strong person and you should be proud of what you have become. I hope you will have an amazing year :)

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    1. Thanks so much, I am looking forward to what the new year brings that's for sure, I hope you have a wonderful one yourself!

      Meme x

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  3. I'm sorry to hear things have been tough for you. I've had anxiety before so I know how bad it can be. I hope things get better for you this year. Stay positive and focused and you'll get through it. xx

    www.dizzymisselizabeth.co.uk

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    1. Thanks so much I really appreciate the comment :) It has been tough but I have came out much more positive!

      Meme x

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  4. It definitely is tough to talk about these things! You are such a strong person! I'm glad you realize how the tough times shaped you though!:) Sometimes asking for help is the toughest thing you can do! Congrats on being an Avon rep! That' awesome!

    Shannon Sage

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    1. Thanks so much, I have some orders all ready so I'm looking forward to delivering those :) Thanks for the comment means a lot!

      Meme x

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  5. I really admire how you wouldnt change anything about your life because its made you the person you are today. Also I totally agree with you on anxiety, it doesnt define who you are and it doesnt need to control your life, your personality and character defines you! xx

    www.adaliascloset.blogspot.co.uk

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    1. Glad you agree, it has been a hard journey but I have come out positive!

      Meme x

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  6. I admire your strength! Thanks for sharing this... I know it will help a lot who go through similar feelings. =)

    - Cielo
    Mermaid in Heels

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  7. Meme, this is a beautiful post. I know what it feels like to want--to need to cope-- when people tell you that you aren't coping, and when you have none to turn to- it feels horrible. but my favorite piece of advice is to always no, that fromm the night rises the sun. no matter how low we sink, there is always a rise-- thats the circle of life.

    that and, just laugh. thats also my fave piece of advice, whatever it is, just laugh.

    http://cynicalduchess.blogspot.com

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    1. Really lovely advice! It's funny how laughing can cheer you up! Thanks for commenting lovely.

      Meme x

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  8. Ahahah, you 're so nice, my dear :d And yes, of course, I'm going to Englad and cook for you :D

    So beautifull post, sweetie. I really admire your personality.
    Keep it up <3

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    1. Thank you lovely :) I look forward to you cooking for me!

      Meme x

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  9. I love when bloggers open up like this. I wrote a post similar a few years ago too. When I moved back home from Texas I had hit rock bottom and just like you, I wouldn't change a thing. I feel like I had to be in that horrible place in order to be who I am today. I'm more understanding and positive nowadays because I understand that underneath any smile can be a lot of hurt. As the quote goes "keep your head up high gorgeous, there are people who'd love to see you fall."

    www.jerseygirltexanheart.com

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    1. Thanks Monica :) I wanted to share this so other people who are maybe in the same position don't give up, I hit a real low and thought I wouldn't make it through so I want to let other people know that it is possible!

      Meme x

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  10. Oh wow, thank you for opening up and sharing this. I've contemplated doing the same but never really had the courage (nor did I think anyone would bother to read it). I know that place because I've been dealing with anxiety and panic disorder since 2014. I haven't really had great help, I've had to teach myself to deal with it because at the time I couldn't afford proper help (and you get what you pay for). I'm not sure if I'll ever be free of it, it's been going on for so long now but I can easily control my mind now. Chin twitches and arm tingles not so much but still, it could be so much worse. I've been through hell and back the last 5 years, starting my own business and blog and all, financially it's sucked me dry and I've made a lot of sacrifices to keep doing what I love to do. I've also lost a lot of friendships too. But it's all gotten me and shaped me into the person I am. People may judge and not like who I've become but I am damn proud of the girl I am now. I'm realer and true to myself. No more fakeness and dumbing myself down.

    Sxx
    www.daringcoco.com

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    1. Good for you sweetie! You deserve to be happy no matter what, so keep you head held high even through the rough times, you'll be a stronger, happier person for it!

      And write what you want to write, it's your blog!

      Meme x

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  11. Glad things are working out better for you now. I feel like really difficult situations are needed every once in a while. They suck, but we grow so much from them.

    aroseisinbloom.blogspot.com

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    1. You're very right there, and it's true I did grow, even though I never thought I would make it through! There is always a light at the end of the tunnel even if you need to search for it. Thanks for commenting.

      Meme x

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  12. welcome back ! lovely post and I hope you ll have a great new year !!!!

    http://allornothing-blog.blogspot.co.uk/

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  13. This post is very inspiring, you are such a strong person!! It's great to see you back :)
    And starting your own Youtube channel sounds amazing :D I love Avon products!

    Lipstick and Mocha

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  14. lovely post dear.... it is a great new that you're going to be on YouTube too
    following you dear please follow me back on GFC
    Glamorous without the Guilt

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  15. A lovely and inspirational post, so tough to open up about such serious things. Really glad to hear you have used your past experiences as a place to grow from, may your happiness continue to grow <3

    //teandtwosugars.blogspot.com xx

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